solitary figures

leaders are always lonely,

so does this make me a leader?

the tension in the room

so tonight was the first time in years that my parents had been in the same room. 

and it took my grand-dad's death to do it. 

it was also the first time my mom met my future stepmom. 

i wanted to be able to be sad. 

but the whole time i felt like i was going to have to break up a fight.

the classic american divorce

i've been feeling lonely

and its because no one around can understand anything im going through. 

im looking for empathy.

all my friends have the "cory matthews" home life. 

no one understands the classic american divorce but me.

mom. dad. fallen. out of love. or whatever it was.

its a lonely feeling.

i want someone who has lived it. and came out all right. 

"when the angels win the pennant"

my friend asked me last night what the worst time in my life was.

after i thought for a minute, my honest answer had to be "im going through it right now...". and have been for the past 3 years. divorce. it sounds soo stupid to complain about. but its ruining me. and im 3 states away from it all. 

this would be a lot easier to run away from if i didn't have a brother and sister looking to me...

especially this last year. 

i would have kissed augusta goodbye and never looked back.