the wonder years

one day, every girl you know will get married and forget about you

conflict and resolution

looking back its always easy to see where God was

its when youre living through the storm that you question his location

i hope im able to make it out and say, “oh, that’s where you were…”

jump

its like standing on that bridge...

looking down at the water moving, almost calling

what if i can't swim as well as i had thought?

partners in crime:: wingmen

i love the friends i have in virginia.

i feel like its a reciprocated love.

let it happen

i wanted a movie about hope. and thats what i got.

birds that finally fly. oceans that have no memory.

freedom. clean start.

if you have to force something to happen, is it really worth it?

quotes

family quarrels are bitter things. they don't go according to any rules. they're not like aches or wounds, they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal because there's not enough material.
- f. scott fitzgerald

new coats of paint

will not reacquaint

broken hearts to broken homes

- dashboard confessional

i am that statistic

"no one is alone the way you are alone"

that sentence is me. no one is alone the way i am. i get that divorce happens. and the statistic is 50/50. but not for me. for me its more like 1/9. no one that im close to comes from a family like mine. and i feel like anytime i try to talk to any of my friends about it, its just sympathy, sympathy, sympathy. i dont want that. no.

i want to be understood. i want empathy.

but for the past 4 years, for whatever reason, God has denied me any contact from someone in my situation.

God, if you knew i would go through this why wouldn't you send me someone who has already been through it?

that only makes sense. i want to know that everything will be ok.

right now there is no guarantee that anyone in my family is going to turn out alright again. no guarantee.